And life went on.

 Here I am, 4 years after my last bike trip, 4 years after my beloved mother passed away, covid is around since 2+ years, now Russia-Ucraine war is going on, Inflation all around Europe... what a time to be alive. 

Well, I can't say as much about the last bike trip as I wrote about the first one, it was more relaxed, more a trip for travelling less a trip as a sports event ( the first one was such an ambitious ride...) I had time to rest, to see and live local cultures, I cycled the whole italian coast, I went to Croatia for the first time, i even vivisted people from my first trip in Italy and Spain, I renovated my bike a bit before going. 

This time longer, a stunning 6800km , took me since september till december, I arrived in Portugal, with tears in my eyes, these two trips have taught me a lot about the true nature of people, how we can all be spontaneously kind if we have conditions for it, and yes, loads of bad things could have happened to me, some did, but overall, europe felt safe, and im still alive and going and proud I did it all. I learned where some of the limits of my body are, how little is actually needed to survive, and to be honest, with your mind you can do amazing things, the body follows if the mind pushes.

Did it turn my life upside down? hard to say,

without bragging, I can safely say I was always a different kid, and so were my parents and my enviroment, I did not continue university after all, I have since worked jobs I chose and liked, well paid, and till today I havent felt like the degree would change much, I still dont know what I would actally like to study, and getting a paper just for the sake of having it doesnt seem like the greatest motivation.

I bummed around portugal a lot during the past 3 years, been a hippie in the moutains voluteering at a pizzaparty place(google or fb  for "fridayhappiness") worked at couple of paid workaways in between, been doing loads of embroidery, smoked probably a good few pounds of weed, went to a couple of rainbow gatherings, some of which broadened my mind and perspectives, after all what you define as life, a good life or a productive life is all on you. Society has a couple of definitions, depending on where you live too, your parents probably have a concept of what you should/could be doing, you have your own idea, but in the end ideas are one thing, and what you actually do day-to-day, is another thing.

I bought a van at the end of last year, yet another hippie dream eh!, lived in it till beginning of march, now back in PL to restock, look for work in the Netherlands, ah yes, now being a slightly older adult earning money regularly is a thing, not gonna lie I still very much embrace 1-1 ratio of work to rest, I am not going to slave away and sell my soul to some corporate devil just to have a shitty pension when Im 60. 

So somewhere around the end of summer holidays last year I got fed up with making money in my home country and left angry, to go discover a better place; Holland, where people do not compete with each other over every single thing, life is a bit calmer in a way, and if you work, you can afford THINGS,whilist back in PL if you work, you can maybe afford survival till the next month.

This post is chaos I know, I came back to the blog in the most absurd way, I was cleaning my email and bumped into some unfinished emails that contained posts for this blog, this is where I would save them so If my phone battery would die mid-word, google would save it very frequently and a very small portion of the post would be lost. It was very nostalgic to read a couple of days of my life back then, to be honest loads of it I didnt remeber, and my writing style...well you can tell the emotions I was under, and that they were a lot!

I cant complain about much, life is alright, I just feel very nostalgic, so I thought I'd give writing a diary a chance, and since my life is very nomad and I carry little to no permanent things, a paper version is gonna die or be a burden. Im pretty sure this blog is not being read by many people (it was after all mostly a thing from me to me&my family) I will try to pour my thoughts in here, in hope that some day they will help me, bring a smile to my face, or just be a (influenced strongly by emotions) memory of some sort.

Spring is here, its time to wake up and enjoy life just a lil'bit more.

Peace out

High in Bratislava

Continuing from last post: Packed with kilograms of fruits and muesli, I cycled to Bratislava, where I had a Couchsurf host guaranteed. He was getting out of work quite late in the evening,and I arrived in Bratislava early, something around 13:00.
I had a lot of time and nowhere to leave my bike,and no real plan whatsoever on what's to see in the city...what's the point of going to the three most turistic places?
But couchsurfing had a solution for me :
Hangouts, so basically you switch that onon a it shows you all the other people nearby that want to hangout, you get to write two sentences about what you wanna do,or where you are...
I started going through the available people and I saw one guy had an awesome profile picture laying on an iceberg on some beach, and a "chilling at the castle" status, plus gps told me he wasn't for away, so why not, right?
I messaged him about the awesome picture, just to find out it was taken in Gdynia(Poland).
We met up at THE castle of Bratislava and we walked around. We went to the war obelisc and talked loads. Turns out we have a lot of cool things in common, he climbs high places, which for me would be impossible....well least that's what I thought
Then the nice stuff started coming out, like the fact that he walks and runs barefoot, studies computer science and takes interest in AI *-*Knows Khan Academy!!!
A magical afternoon.
He purposes I think as a joke in the beginning, that if I'm so spontaneous and adventurous, maybe we should climb a crane together.
It went from joke to plan(where do I know this scenario from ;)
Thing is,we would have to go at night,so staying at my host would be complicated and uncomfortable.
Not a problem for Peter(<3) he managed to fix me a place to stay.
I could leave my bike too,I showered, changed... genuinely went back to life.
We climbed the crane somewhere around midnight, I think.
I had the best time, no jokes,the best.
I felt super,free,high on adrenaline...
I fell in love with heights and with...
Well,take a guess,it's easy ;)
And I just stayed in Bratislava for two more nights😜

As cold as Slovakia?

So Slovakia was weird,because the roads were good,but not too much space for bikes,but people make an effort driving,it doesn't always mean they actually leave me a lot of space...but I don't feel unsafe.
I cycled through quite a lot of really nice bike roads(asphalt obviously,although I cycled on gravel and sand a lot too thanks to my freaking gps)At one town a red Skoda Fabia going on opposite direction beeped at me,and the driver showed me a peace sign through the window,so I smiled and waved back.Long story short,he turned around,overtook me and we stopped for a chat near the road,he have me his number,and told me that if I ever have time or I'm in trouble in Slovakia,he would come and pick me up...I mean,awesome right,and then he gave me an awesome sticker,size of my hand,to stick somewhere on my bags.
Another nice thing that happened to me was sleeping near to bees on a field.The owner of the grounds came,right before I was going to sleep,to pick up like millions of bottles,we talked and he was impressed,and super happy that I chose his field to sleep on xD,He also used to do bike trips,but only around Slovakia.Still,super cool.Then in the morning when I was picking up my stuff,he came in the car again,with the millions of bottles back,but filled with food for the bees.But that is nothig,he took out a picninc blanket and a huge basket filled with food and a termos with tea,and a bottle of his homemade honey,and told me to fill up,coz I must be hungry after,and I exercise so much,and he said that whatever I don't eat now,he doesn't want to take back,so I should pack it.
Wow! Needless to say,I packed 80% of it,because I'm not a breakfast person,but the warm tea was awesome.
The honey I don't really eat,I tried it,to show my caretaker at the moment,that it's good.
To make a point that the title started,besides these few acts of kindness I found Slovaks,to be a very cold and closed culture.

Czech republic...11/10

To be honest,my arrival in Czech republic was anticipated by quite a lot of bad adventures....flat tire,GPS lost,phone died,I was hit by a car(don't worry,the car is fine....so is my bike thank god[me])freshly done asphalt melt through my tire...But putting aside all that bad shit,I arrived at a Tesco,right after crossing the border.I did my shopping,fruit veg,legumes and looot of water(plus cola...I can't help it)I even found a charging spot...so I sat down,connected my phone,everything is good(I just didn't have a place to sleep,but I wasn't stressed yet) but, to my surprise,my phone stopped charging. I thought,maybe it's the cable,or the charger itself(which I stole from my dad hehe).

I saw a e-cigarette stand,and the was a charging spot in sight,so I asked politely if I could try it out.Turns out it was all okay,nothing broken. Shortly after I found myself talking to the salesman from the shop.He closed the shop,for a while of course,invited me for a meal,because "if I cycle so much,I must eat a ton"...kinda true tho.Rice with vegetables and tofu,It was good,I think I was barely breathing while eating :D We spoke some more,i asked for any park or forrest nearby,that I could sleep in.I left my phone to my newly made friend,I checked on my bike,and I went for a walk.While checking on my bike,I spoke to quite a lot of people😂some kids were walking by,amazed by my colorfulhair,some poeple asked details of my journey,and if I'm alone,and if I'm not scared,and why do I do it...I met a very nice Czech cyclist,who does one week trip around this part of Europe,he gifted me freshly harvested apples,and a magical can with superspecial originall czech energy drink *-*I found the forest right outside the town,really nice,mosquitoes-free,trashfree,and most important,people-free=safe.

I came back to my friend,and he was waiting with a gift...He gave me his own batterypack,claiming he doesn't need it more,and he wants to sponsor me.Awwwww!!! So kind! I couldn't deny him,trust me,I tried,I like when people help me,but I don't want too much.He made me feel bad for denying,so I had no choice.

Also,the lady from flowershop right opposite,tried to give me a whole bowl of candy🙈 but I showed her the bigbag of fruits I had already bought,and won't be able to eat....since I got invited to full dinner 😂

Besides all the stated before, Czech republic also had really decent roads,bikes and cars both,people are s bit nicer than Poland,and obviously drive better.

En route...AGAIN :D

I thought last trip taught me something; " it was fun,but don't do it again".So,as a responsible blonde,here I am again,laying in my sleeping bag,on top of my beautifully blue inflatable mattress

It feels miraculous to take off my shoes,lay down,straighten my back and eat some juicy fruit &veg

Last year I didn't have the time to visit Slovakia nor Croatia.This time I will,even more,this time I will cycle whole Italian coast,since I skipped most of it before.

I fear it might be really cold tonight,after all,it's almost autumn.I raced the clouds today,and I managed to escape a horrible rain 20-30km from Częstochowa.

Tomorrow(3rd day),if nothing unpredictable happens,I will leave Poland,and enter Czech republic,but I also see the route has 600m uphill,and 500dowhill...That's a lot of mountains.

I haven't done any mountain cycling lately.

I fear I might die trying hard...

Yesterday I cycled from home,near to Skierniewice.This year I am trying to travell more for fun,relax,meeting people and seeing places,than for sport/resistence& proving myself I'm invincible (like I did  summer'17)

Sky is clear

I hope it never rains,not when I'm cycling...but I doubt that's possible.

My phone is nearly dead,which is giving me a bit of anxiety. I still have my other phone(yes,I have two now) but it has the shittiest battery life I've ever seen,and I have a battery pack.But I am hoping to save this for later,after all I don't know how long before someone from Couchsurfing hosts me😰🤷

Be the fastest fox in the forest

Everyone can be smart,and everyone can be gifted.As humans we arent born super intelligent or with better brain,gifted to begin with,NO. Intelligent,confident,smart,gifted, talented and all the similar are just particular states of mind,skills,and hours of hard work,maybe inconsciously you are good at something,because you watched a lot of videos about it,or its your hobby and you dont notice the hours you spend on it.Maybe you had a family member who did something to influence you.but it is never genetics,DONT ever thing you arent achievieng something because you were born with some sort of permament brain state.
You can change everything,state of mind,efficiency,IQ,confidence,skills,talents etc...But your biggest enemy is fear,and even more precisely,your brain.
As humans we dont like changes,we fear the new,we fear to fail,or sometimes we dont want to work very hard because it would show we arent so smart/super skilled talented,hard work and struggle for some people means they arent made for "it".
Yet we all know,that the hardest things when achieved,give us the most satisfaction:
-Training twice a week and loosing 2kg a month MEH
-Training four times a week and loosing 5kg a month NICE
and so on with every discipline.
I studied design,I want to design,but I cant draw,like nothing,you know this level of "human with 5 sticks and cirlce"? thats me.
And what my brain says is: its okay,you can do it without it,you dont have the talent,stop trying,its a waste of time,it will take years before you learn to draw decently.....
When the truth is Im a confortable lazy ass,because YOUTUBE IS FREE,and its mroe than full of series and videos on how to draw.

But enough about being lazy,since not wanting or being able to achieve something is more of a state of mind than actuall situation,what can you do about it?
THIS YES,ITS A BOOK, reading is time taking,yes,but isnt your career,satisfaction,hapiness,and confidence worth these few hours? instead of watching tv during dinner,or cats in free time,or scrolling Instagram.Its not a motivational book,it simple explains how to cheat your brain,change you mindset,and percieve your EVERY QUALITY as a SKILL.
so to be clear,being fat is a skill,its not your quality,your werent born fat,no one was,we learn it,the lifestyle,the trashy food and no movement, and so being skinny or fit is a skill aswell,to know when you are full,to know what you should eat,to know not to go hungry shopping etc...
Also your brain has this very short period of time before it starts being scared and stops you from doing something,

Five seconds theory by Mel Robbins(not related with Tony!!)

She explains the mechanisms of our brain,and how we can avoid being so scared of something, or how to make hard decisions fast,its not magic,its maths.

For the Grand Finale,if You are still studying or learning something,I have something marvellous for you too.Ever had a shitty teacher? or lacks of knowledge in some topic that didnt let you advance further? I know the pain. You want to be the smartass of the class? Ofcourse!
KHAN ACADEMY its free,its simple,it does the work for you,it has a program of study for everything,every level,you can start from 0 or from 100,it offers exercises,test,challenges,GREAT VIDEOS,and articles. It is perfectly sorted,very organized.It helped me in highschool, to a point when I was diagnosed gifted and skipped a year. Im serious, it mights seem funny in the beggining,just set yourself goals like 2 or 5k points a day,or one exercise a day,its one click away

If you still didnt go to khan academy,just watch my video,and if you arent convinced then...I give up

Just kidding I wont :P

Im talkative-Youtube

I like sharing some usefull knowledge,and do it in my own awkward way,so fot those who miss seing me,or want to see how I stressfully throw my hands in the air when explaing ANYTHING. I made a youtube channel.To begin I did WOOP few days ago,and this is the result,Will I keep up?

https://youtu.be/6Ad2caGh1vw

If I manage to force mysleft to some sort of routine,expect at least 3 vids a week :D

They will and are short,so I wont bore anyone to death or fall into a chain of changin topics.

MY CHANNEL :https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCykTy0pTOadIFalLlHlelAA

Check it out,leave a view or a like ;)